Ok so recently I wrote that my bro's PSP was broken. Today the shop owner call my mum to collect the PSP. Just when my mum put down the phone my sis came to us. She ask my mum she need a favor. Then she show us her handphone. We were shock to see her (hp) lcd cracked badly. my mom shout at her. Well she nag bout how we are so CARELESS and not APPRECIATE THINGS. (ESPECIALLY ON Expensive devises).

Then it occurred to me. Hey at first my bro PSP next my sis HP then whose turn? Is THIS A CURSE?? Anyway I'm also mad at my sibling. How could they be so careless. Now that I gain my experience working. It is tough to find money nowadays. Yet they easily came to my parents with a wide smile before showing their broken stuff.

I will take an oath on my SWORD that I will TRY to TAKE CARE of my valuable POSSESSION. (NOW it reminds me of my IC) .

Today I went for shopping again. But this time with my mom. I really want to buy this cute dress at Pasir Ris. Actually I saw this dress yesterday went we were about to go to the chalet. My mom told me to but it after we get back from the chalet. But then it was already late went we headed back home so the shop was closed. Therefore we went to buy the dress today. After we went to that shop we thought of eating at banquet. However White Sand banquet are small. It was a mini banquet. So in the end we ended up going to Eastpoint at Simei.

By the way I also want to buy my PSP casing at one of the shop. And also to get my bro PSP as it was in the ICU ward. Actually my bro's PSP was broken therfore my mom went to that shop to get it fix. But the guy told us that it may took a longer period to get it repair. My mom had to pay $85 to get it fix.

After buying the PSP casing we went to Banquet. I ordered YONG TAU FU while my mom ordered TOM YAM. We were enjoying our meal when my mom's friends came to us one by one. It was a coincidental day as all the person that we do not wish to meet GREETED us. Therefore we just put a smile across our face. Again most of my moms' friends do not recognize me. They even thought that I was my mom friends. And went they saw me IMMEDIATELY they ask about my result. My mom simply told them that I may be going to POLY as well as Higher NITEC. Whatever the result is. I will follow my heart.

About my moms friend I do not mean to be rude but I hate them. well it's becoz all of their children are in the express stream so they kinda look down on me. And when they found out that I could go to poly, they ask me what aggregate I obtained. I was like hey 'At least I could manage get to poly with a 'excellent point''. After chatting a lot bout me, it was time for us to go to the shopping mall at Tampines.

We got the time to disturb Haikal who is working at BATA. I was about to ask for size 26 when he look up and gave me a skeptical look. Then my mom also came in and ask for size 27. We talk a bit bout the courses we are going in. Then when we about to leave Eastpoint I saw Jannah and Wani. They are also about to go to BATA to tease HAikal. So then we head back to BATA and this time the 4 of us disturb him. My mom also can't believe that all of us met at the same place and at the same time. It was just a coincident.

After chatting with them we then took the train to go to Tampines. It was so crowded at Tampines Mall. We went crazy looking at the bags and clothes. Then my mom remember the new outlets in Century Square called BHG. So we window shop a bit. It feel so good having your mom with you went you shop. HAHA becoz she could lend u her $$$$$$. After the whole lot of hours of window shopping we began to feel tired and so we surrender. So then we went back home. On our way to the bus interchange we met our neighbor who is also the same age as me. He greeted my mom. My mom told him that these O level candidates really have a GOOD LOOKING HAIR. We (he and me) laugh upon hearing her remarks. Well now that we are free from our school surely we are free to do our 'clever stuff'.

By the way I spent $ 60 on clothes and the PSP casing. HEHEHE

For the past few days, I have been eating and eating. OMG its time for me to declare war on FOOD. But the foods are so tempting and I can't resist it. Aniwae it my 'celebration' so I will eat to my heart content. HAHA. Yesterday I went to my aunt's chalet. It is also done as part of my celebration. However it only done for my families. So to my friends out there please don't get mad that u are not invited. My dad and sis love the barbecuing part. However things really get burnt. See what I mean. All of us were angry at them. Well they just said that they already put their afford. So then I took charge. OF course going to girl guide's chalet taught me a lot. Now can you see the BIG DIFFERENCES.











So after the barbecuing things ended, we went to the beach to relax our minds and to enjoy the wind. WOW i really tan myself for standing in front of the barbecue pit. My brother then saw the playground and we ended up playing like a bunch of kids. Well the spider-web thingy looks so fun and adventurous. Too bad I'm wearing high heels and worn my NEW WHITE DRESS. I don't want it to get dirty. My bro could get the world record becoz he really climb up like a spider man or should I say like a monkey. He reach the peak in a few minutes. Well I only pose myself as I could not get to the peak.HEHE. We took more pictures of ourselves before we leave the park as we feel hungry again. We watch x-men 2 and then we found the show so boring. So in the end we chat in one of the room. We switch the air-con to the lowest temperature and then start doing stupid stuff and also snap some pictures. Around 9+ we start to head back home. When we reached home all of us quarrel to go to the toilet. Too bad my sis really need the loo so she went in first followed by my bro as he got school tomorrow so he must really wash himself first. Well I was the last to enter the toilet as tomorrow (which is today) I got no school/ work.

By the way Have I changed a lot?? Most of my relatives could not recognize me. Even my aunt!! Well now I'm a japan gal wannabe.HEHE

So Feeqah and I went to Pasir Ris. we both bring cash worth of $50. We are so crazy and walk in every outlets. We kinda feel bored of shopping around Simei and Tampines. Well I bought this cute dress. However it was a SLEEVELESS dress. I know that I wasn't suppose to buy it but I can't resist on buying it. So in the end after I bought it I have to find a t-shirt to wear inside it. My family will definitely scream at me if they saw me wearing a sleeveless clothes. Well my family are really strict on religion stuff. Somehow when it came to wearing of TUDUNG or scarf we try not to be strict.HEHEHE. Of coz hair really mean too much to us so we do not want to hide it.


Aniwae so we search for normal shirt but then at White Sand none of it suit my taste. So we end up shopping at Tampines Mall. We went to every outlet still it does not suit me. Finally I found this plain dress at This Fashion. Then we still look around and saw these cute legging and another red dress. Again we ended up buying it. Hehe. After we went shopping we took a quick bite at Mc Cafe. The cakes are so tempting. And we almost wanna buy all the cakes they sell.


At home after taking shower I look at my slip and found out that all the courses that I could apply was on DESIGN School. I am a Food and Nutrition Student and I did not even pass my DRAWING exams. So how can I go for that courses?. My mom told me not to go to work just to choose carefully where I want to go. SO I call my boss and make some excuses that I need to go for an interview. N you know what. She scream at me and scold me. She told me that I informed her at the 11th hour. I was like 'hey I manage to call u at 8 and is it still too late?.' And she nag at me saying that she will call me to go to work if she got no manpower. What ever it is I am still not going to work and going to switch off my mobile phone tomorrow. Choosing the courses are more important than work. Aniwae if the courses make me snore I will and am going to go for Higher NiTec.

At 10 am I woke up when my alarm went off.When I woke up suddenly I missed all the bunch of the boys. Its so funny as I'm not feeling scared of my result. I took a shower and then grab my phone and talk to Jannah. We all feel so nervous thinking of the negative effects. When it was 11 45 we put down the phone and get ready to meet at Eastpoint. Well we were suppose to meet at 12 45 but the bus was late so when I reached there Wani and Jannah are waiting for me. By the way I kept tripping on the bus. Guess I was nervous. So we went to BATA just to tease Haikal for a while. He have to rush out at before 2 p.m and meet us before the 4 of us went to school. Well so while waiting for Haikal we ate at Long John Silver. Even though we feel scared and nervous we manage to fill our stomach. Finally it time for us to meet Haikal and go to school.

Just as we step into our school compound the security guard tease me. He said some1 really change. but he said that being neutral r still the best. We just laugh and head straight to hall. By the way my mom reached the hall first. She really wanted to support me. I LOVE U MOM. U R THE BEST. When we arrived our principal are busy talking about our result and comparing the result from 2006 and 2007. The rest of my class was like 'We dun want to hear u. We just want our RESULT' Finally at 2 45 he ended the talk and wish us the best.

So the intense feeling start to feel the whole atmosphere in the hall. Nervous, excited and restless filled me up the moment MISS CHOW (My form teacher) handed my result to me. At first I thought that I have to go to I.T.E as she pass me the I.T.E brochure. Then when I opened my form I noticed that I could go to POLY. Well i felt Happy and yet Sad. Becoz I found out that Wani and HAikal can't make it. At first we did not cry. We just compare our result. It all happen went I go to my mom. When she found out that Wani can't make it. She encourage her not to give up. My mom than started to advise all of us that we must not be disappointed. She also said that it doesn't matter if we fail but we must not give up. Then Wani started to cry. When she cry the rest of us also started to cry. (Well except for HAikal) We really feel sad as she is our friend and so we feel her pain. Together we stand and together we will fall. My mom also cry when the whole lot of us cry.

So we ended up chatting at one corner and console one another. I did pass but my mark are just hanging by a thread. Most of my courses are in the Design Studies. I was like Jannah I want to swap my courses with you. For once in my life I never been good in drawing. If I design things it will definitely turn up into something else. (Not even a THING) Then Syafiqah came and we ended up talking about works. So after we feel consoled we go our separate ways. Except for me and feeqah as we are going to Pasir Ris to shop around. So the afternoon it was really filled with sadness and happiness. What ever it is, my result still do not bring me down. Nothing can stop me from achieving my dream.

WOW it's been a tiring day for the last 2 days. Evey time after we finished cleaning the plane, the van is already been waiting for us to pick us up and bring us to the next plane. The worst thing was that it has been a HOT DAY and all the plane were on TRANSIT. We have to clean the plane A.S.A.P and if we don't clean it fast we will be shouted at. ( As Usual) Somehow I wanted to thank the Boys coz they really have been a great help. Well even though they tease me A LOT. At lease they ease my burden.

By the way becoz of the work, I am not worried of my result. Thank god. My mind are preoccupied with the job and so it has no space left for me to worry bout my result. HEHEHE. well I can't wait for tomorrow to come. I wonder what are my teachers reaction when they saw me. I mean I really changed. Especially with my dyed hair. I feel so relief now that result is coming. However I started to feel a bit 'sad'. I am going to miss my brothers then.( The bunch of boys) Without them I cant possibly finish cleaning the plane back than. Oh yeah bout the GUY that gave me the TEDDY BEAR I ended up not giving him any gift. But I just gave him a NICE FRIENDLY SMILE and a THANK YOU.

Ok than that's all I got for today. My mind, body and soul are so tired. They wanted to SLEEP. Aniwae I wish GOOD LUCKS and BEST WISHES TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS AND ALSO TO 'O' LEVEL CANDIDATES.

Something terrible and yet heart-throbbing happened to me. There is this guy at work that have a CRUSH on me. Well I noticed it when Feeqah told me. At first I thought that he just looking around as it was so boring during our break. However he 'SEEMED' TO ALWAYS LOOK AT ME. Then yesterday he came to me with a fluffy stuff. At first I thought it was just a pillow. Then he shove it to me and ask me to take it. I was shaking my head the whole time. But then one of my teammate came to me. She also thought it was a pillow and wanted to take it but then she notice it was a TEDDY BEAR. She looked at him and he said to her to pass it to me. I was so shock to see the teddy bear. I could not say a word. NOT EVEN A THANK YOU.

( How irony it is that the c0lour of the teddy bear match with the color of our UNIFORM)

The next day, feeqah had to team up with his team to clean the airplane. I wish I have feeqah character of being so BRAVE. She went up to him and asked him whether he have give me a simple present. He nod but then he said to her that he felt shameful. I felt MORE GUILTY when he said that I DROPPED HIS WATER FACE of NOT ACCEPTING HIS GIFT. The worst thing is my GUILTY left me hard to work and sleep at night.(L.O.L JUST 1 NIGHT ONLY)Well its not that I dun accept his gift its just that I dun noe that it was a TEDDY BEAR. Now I really feel so DAMN GUILTY. I just feel that I made him lose face in front of his friends. So in the end ( that is today) I think that I'm going to give him a same present as an APOLOGIZE . The problem is I dun know how to give the 'present' to him. I DEFINITELY DO NOT WANT TO GIVE IT IN FRONT OF HIS FRIENDS. i CANT IMAGINE WHAT HIS FRIENDS ARE GOING TO DO IF THEY SAW ME GIVING HIM the 'PRESENT'. Aniwae I just have to face IT. (by the way this FRIDAY IS MY LAST DAY IN WORK SO THEY WON'T GET TO SEE ME EVER AGAIN)



Next thing I wanna CONGRATULATE MYSELF of going through WEEKS OF HELL ALIVE AND WELL. I cant believe it I made it and finally I am going to gain MY FREEDOM. HIP HIP HURRAY. I AM SO HAPPY THINKING ABOUT MY FREEDOM. However Lets the RESULT be as it IS. I am going to be PROUD of my RESULT NO MATTER WHATS. I already waste my YOUTH on tuition and studying. I already tried my best so let just the result come and BE PROUD WITH IT. PS I cant also wait to see my teachers friends again. ITS SO SAD THAT MDM ROZIAH wont be there coz she just had an OPERATION FOR HER LEGS.

(Suddenly I begin to miss her). I wish that she will get better sooner or later.

Oh yeah. Thank GOD. Another 6 days to go for the commences of our O level result. I am so happy. (Funny I don't feel nervous or scared.) That is because finally I am free to soar again. NO MORE NAGGING, NO MORE SHOUTING and NO MORE LOOKING AT FACES THAT PISSING ME OFF . I can't wait to leave the FORSAKEN place. Finally I will get my revenge on them. HAHAHA. This Chinese New YEAR they will suffer because there is no one that is going to help them. But somehow my teammates are getting closer to me. Just now we get to make some jokes and laugh all the way while cleaning the airplane. But that don't change my heart to stay. I got no reason to stay.

Finally result. I don't know if my result bring be happiness or sadness. But what ever it is I wont give up CHASING MY DREAMS. (EVEN IF ITS A LONG JOURNEY). Well, 'SON GOKU and SANZO PARTY' travel all the way to the WEST just to search for the SUTRAS. I could also TRAVEL TO WILD ROUNDS to ACHIEVE MY DREAMs. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE in this world. It will only fail if u GIVE UP. I am not a person that easily be DEFEATED. So bring it on.

I will DEFINITELY go out for SHOPPING. I have been waiting to go out and shopping. Those bloody clothes are so tempting. And I can wait to lay my fingers on them. Besides shopping I could also sleep late at night.HAHAHA. No more sleeping early n waking up early. YEAH. I could do my normal routine of CHATTING ONLINE and WATCHING ANIME ONLINE. I am so GOING TO STAY AT HOME to CURE MY SKIN. It has been tanned since I have to work UNDER THE SCORCHING SUN. ARGH!! GLOBAL WARMING R SO BOILING UP MY BLOOD.

OMG. Today is the best day for me. Finally I am happy for this month and of this year. Just now in the morning, I saw fiqah with a dull expression. In the bus she kept quiet and looked angry. Therefore by looking at the face, I also feel so gloomy. Hence before entering my workplace gate, I told her jokingly that I wanna ditch work coz I felt that we have no mood for work. We took 2 steps and I told her again I dun wanna go to work. We stop and she look at me skeptically. I told her if she want to go to work then I will go to work too. It toook a few seconds for her to think and then we took 2 step back when she said she also dun wanna go to work. So then we look around and straight away went for a detour. In the end we hail a cab and went to Tampines Mall and eat breakfast ant MC Donald. At MC Donald we call our boss and tell them why we can't go to work. My reason was that: My mom is sick so I need to take care of the chores. Whereas Fiqah reason was: I lost my wallet which contain my IC and so the security won't let me in. HAHA that really teach them not to mess with us.

So then we ate at MC Donald and stay there for 2 hour before we go back to my house and then she help me dye my hair. I dun have any comment for my hair color right now.



Anyway after we dye our hair we go out.Well fiqah plan to go to Cineplex at Century Square and watch a horror movie called 1 missed call. I was totally shock that there are only 3 people (including me and fiqah) watching the movie. It was the 1st time I feel like I owned the movie theater. Since it weekdays so no one watch movies. Therefore I took my pictures in this isolated theater. I am posing with a peace sign.

(Unfortunately the movie is starting and the light is turn dim:- so maybe you can't see it well)







After the movie end, we went to the Arcade and then all hell break lose. Just kidding actually we lose all our money. HE..HE... I played Guitar Hero and Drum Mania. It so good to play in the Arcade. However I guess I have chosen the wrong song and turn out to be a hard mode. So therefore I lost all the game about 3 minutes after it started. The lame part was some passer-by actually watch me playing Guitar hero. Wateva all I know was that I want to enjoy myself.













After being fed up losing the games,Fiqah and I both played Silent hill. Luckily fiqah was a good aimer. She had helped me a lot to kill the monster till the last stage. However we still died coz the boss was too tough for us.













After playing at the Arcade we still don't plan to go back home. So we walk around and window shop for clothes. We all went crazy after we saw those clothes that was on sale. of coz we feel bored walking around so we wanna go to Giant but there was a long queue for the feeder bus. We end up taking MRT and went to White Sand. Again we walk around and finally I saw a this cute dress and of coz straight away I bought it. HAHA. Somehow my heart feel so light went I reached home. Oh how I wish I could stay like this forever.

By the way I really envy Jannah though.She really meet this cute guy who looks like JIRO (a singer from Taiwan pop band called FARENHEIT) from during her tour at SP open house. Arh!! I really missed my chance hanging with the looked alike JIRO. If I knew I go shopping for a while and rush to SP open house. HE...HE...

Oh my god. I really feel thankful. Luckily there are still kind hearted people in this world. Yesterday my neighbor came to my door and he return my IC to me. I was like almost hugging and kissing him. I finally got my IC back. No worrying bout it. Now I will treasure my IC. I won't lost it and I will be more careful.

I don't care anymore about my work. All I know was that result is coming and then I will be free from total madness. The day I receive my result is the day that I quit from my work. I am so going to countdown for the result. However I don't know when is the result. HE..HE.. I heard it is on the 25 of Jan and then I heard that it is on the 28 Jan. Whatever I don't care. In my mind it is all about quiting work.

To think of it, I have not going for shopping for a long time. Oh i really miss those old days. I also have not watching movies and pamper myself by indulging with all the ice-creams. I can't imagine for those days to come. I will spent my days shopping and watching movies and forget to go back home. By the way my class chalet is coming on bout 2 or 3 more days. I can't wait to see my friends. Oh I really miss them and I miss my school work. I want my books back. I want to go back to school.It is so funny. Just a few months ago, I complain bout school then right now I misses school. 1 thing matter was that:I miss my math textbook and calculator.( I guess I am that kind of girl that loves to complain) For the pass few weeks I kept having a repeating dreams that I went back to school. Therefore I am so looking forward bout the class chalet. I will attend my class chalet no matter what.I won't let these opportunity let lose. So a few days to go for me to meet my friends and teachers. Its time for me to begin my fun.

Ok a few days ago I already told you that my superviser is an evil witch. Yesterday I really burst my anger at her and then left that damn place. When everyone saw me behaving like that, they quickly console me and told me to be patience. (I will end up being a patient in the mental hospital by then.)I even told my boss that I wanna quit instantly but she won't let me quit. I told every inch of my story but she ask me to calm down and be patience. Oh god seriously my patience are flowing off from my body and anger started to fill in. I can't believe that someone would actually hire someone with no words insurance like that witch. Again I still can't quit the job. They held me in a captive. (I need someone to let me free. Help me!!!!)

When I came back home, I cry as much as I want to and throw everything that I could reach on the floor. (Luckily I went back to my aunt's house and no one was there.) I took my drowsiness pill and went to sleep hoping that I will forget everything.

Guess what today I really forgotten everything. I actually forgotten where I put my IC. I could not find my IC when I was about to leave my aunt's house. I search every corner of this house and still could not find it. Why of all things must be the IC to be lost. In a frust I told my mom and decided to make a police report. And again I was scolded. By whom? None other than my dad. This whole week started to pissing me off. I hate my life for this whole week. Perhaps 2008 is an unlucky year for me. I need a talisman to ward off this bad luck. Arg I can't understand why does this have to happen to me. Once I fall down, I will continue falling down in a deeper black hole. I am so listening to the metal hardcore rock everyday with the volume turn out so loud.

Ps: U have just read a blog written by a really angry, annoyed and frustrated girl.

Ok now i finally found my work to kill time as i am waiting for my 'o' level result. I found a job but the task is so difficult. Cleaning the aeroplane is my job. U can meet a lot of foreigners and people. But somehow I get to meet a nasty person in my workplace. The person is none other than my superviser. But luckily she only came and took charge once in a week. That person is e most person that I loathe in my entire life. She loves to pick on newcomers and also shout at everyone. At first I though that she is eyeing on me but then my colleagues told me she always get mad at everyone. I don't even know what's her real problem is. Luckily my colleagues are there for me and they kept encouraging me.I am also glad that my sacred friends also encourage me to be strong. This is the first time I work and I already gain bad experience.

But fear not I take this job as a challenge. Just like my exams. A challenge for me and I won't be defeated. By the wae I came back home listening to heavy metal song just to let out my anger. Right now I am doing a countdown for February to arrive because on February I am going to quit the job. I don't know if I could make it to Poly or not. But 1 thing matter for me and that is to runaway from that evil witch. I will be really happy when that time comes. I won't get to hear her nagging and shouting. Even my principal and teacher do not shout at me. I rather do thousands of Math homework than getting shouted at. I wonder if my doing things slowly is a criminal to her. I mean I just started working about a week and I'm kinda do things a bit slow. But hey I tried my best to do it fast. Even if i do it fast, my work won't be efficient.

I really can't wait for February to arrive. I hope that when I leave that place, that witch have to watch over a newcomer which is more worst then me. However that is what working life is. Now I know how difficult it is to earn money. Perhaps my parents too must have gone through the same experience as I does. And I don't appreciated them for the hard work. Somehow when I started working I feel a bit sorry for my parents. I must not took things for granted and hang on the phone with my friends for so long. ( Goodness how much will the bill cost right now). But whatever it is I will try my best to be patient with her attitude. After all everyone of us have different behavior. Like me I'm a 'don't test my patient' type of person and get irritated easily.

Right now I hope all the best for me and also for her :so that every one in my workplace won't hate her . I also hope that she will change her attitude so that our workplace won't be fill with anger and hatred. Lastly I wish everyone out there a HAPPY NEW YEAR (even though today is the third dae of the new year) and BE HAPPY WITH UR LIFE.

Ps If someone angers you, just listen to heavy metal song. It will at least ease your pain.