Something terrible and yet heart-throbbing happened to me. There is this guy at work that have a CRUSH on me. Well I noticed it when Feeqah told me. At first I thought that he just looking around as it was so boring during our break. However he 'SEEMED' TO ALWAYS LOOK AT ME. Then yesterday he came to me with a fluffy stuff. At first I thought it was just a pillow. Then he shove it to me and ask me to take it. I was shaking my head the whole time. But then one of my teammate came to me. She also thought it was a pillow and wanted to take it but then she notice it was a TEDDY BEAR. She looked at him and he said to her to pass it to me. I was so shock to see the teddy bear. I could not say a word. NOT EVEN A THANK YOU.

( How irony it is that the c0lour of the teddy bear match with the color of our UNIFORM)

The next day, feeqah had to team up with his team to clean the airplane. I wish I have feeqah character of being so BRAVE. She went up to him and asked him whether he have give me a simple present. He nod but then he said to her that he felt shameful. I felt MORE GUILTY when he said that I DROPPED HIS WATER FACE of NOT ACCEPTING HIS GIFT. The worst thing is my GUILTY left me hard to work and sleep at night.(L.O.L JUST 1 NIGHT ONLY)Well its not that I dun accept his gift its just that I dun noe that it was a TEDDY BEAR. Now I really feel so DAMN GUILTY. I just feel that I made him lose face in front of his friends. So in the end ( that is today) I think that I'm going to give him a same present as an APOLOGIZE . The problem is I dun know how to give the 'present' to him. I DEFINITELY DO NOT WANT TO GIVE IT IN FRONT OF HIS FRIENDS. i CANT IMAGINE WHAT HIS FRIENDS ARE GOING TO DO IF THEY SAW ME GIVING HIM the 'PRESENT'. Aniwae I just have to face IT. (by the way this FRIDAY IS MY LAST DAY IN WORK SO THEY WON'T GET TO SEE ME EVER AGAIN)



Next thing I wanna CONGRATULATE MYSELF of going through WEEKS OF HELL ALIVE AND WELL. I cant believe it I made it and finally I am going to gain MY FREEDOM. HIP HIP HURRAY. I AM SO HAPPY THINKING ABOUT MY FREEDOM. However Lets the RESULT be as it IS. I am going to be PROUD of my RESULT NO MATTER WHATS. I already waste my YOUTH on tuition and studying. I already tried my best so let just the result come and BE PROUD WITH IT. PS I cant also wait to see my teachers friends again. ITS SO SAD THAT MDM ROZIAH wont be there coz she just had an OPERATION FOR HER LEGS.

(Suddenly I begin to miss her). I wish that she will get better sooner or later.